5th New Dream

[its_decided]

[Written]

Everypony...

...how would you feel if you got to know what your future would be like and you realized that it'll never come true?

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[And long after the question, Nozomi's busy just being so melancholy. A teacher. She was a teacher. She had her friends, she knew more friends, other girls who bore the name "Pretty Cure" and the worst of all was that she fell in love.

But, that wasn't her. She was like the other Twilight Sparkle, just a program from Mayfield. She'd never experience that at all. And that's what is hurting her right now.]

...I miss everyone...

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[etranger]

You make it come true. As long as you never give up and believe with all your heart, your dreams will never abandon you.

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[its_decided]

[That would be something SHE would say, wouldn't it?]

You're right, but... this one... i-it's impossible. I know it is! Being a teacher, that's one thing, but having my friends and so many more and everything...

...it would take a miracle.

[etranger]

MIRACLES EXIST. I know, because I've seen them. Even when everything seemed hopeless, I believed in my ideals and saw them through to the end, and that belief created a miracle.

[its_decided]

You're right. Maybe if...

No, no 'maybe's. I HAVE to, right? I have to work on it...

I know what I want to do now.

[etranger]

Good. I'm rooting for you.

[its_decided]

Thank you!

Oh, ah, I don't think I've introduced myself to you yet. I'm Nozomi!

[etranger]

I'm...huh. I just realized I've never given out my full name since I got here.

Anyway, I'm Mako Daylily Linden, of Nuvema Town.

[its_decided]

It's nice to meet you, Mako.

And again... thank you.

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[mechmadeoflove]

What makes you so sure it won't?

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[its_decided]

It's just... I'm not the real me. It's... kinda a long story...

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[mechmadeoflove]

...oh boy. I don't think I know how to help with that other than listening. Wish there was an Anchor around, they'd probably be better to talk to about it.

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[its_decided]

...an Anchor? Why would I want to talk to part of a boat?

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[mechmadeoflove]

Sorry. Kind of new here. They're the people back home, back at my home anyway, who help guys sort out feelings and thoughts.

I really shouldn't be surprised that nopony in Equestria would know what an Anchor is. The kind of person, not the literal boat thing.

What makes you think you aren't... you? If you don't mind my asking.

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[its_decided]

Well... I was pretty much created. I was created in a place called "Mayfield", which turned out to be a computer world.

I'm pretty much a computer program.

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[mechmadeoflove]

[The response is a long time coming. When it does start to come, it comes slowly and with small erasing and rewriting.]

You know, it occurs to me that I was Not to make light of what you're going through, but it occurs to me that I was pretty much created. It was a long, slow process of cells splitting.

We don't know at what point I became real and alive and me either, and I've read and lived enough sci-fi that being code doesn't strike me as disqualifying you from the existence sweepstakes being a barrier to being a real person.

I really hope this helps Was that useful? Does that make sense to you?

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[morganknight]

What's stopping it from coming true?

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[its_decided]

Well... there's the part that I'm not really me... It's hard to explain. Kinda like Twilight's problem, only except with the turning evil bit and turning people away.

[written]

[morganknight]

I'm not familiar with Twilight's problem... or any of the history here, actually, so can you start me off fresh before I say something stupid because of missing context?

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[its_decided]

Oh! Sorry!

I came from a place called "Mayfield". It was a town controlled by a man who lost touch with reality and tried to force other people to live in his idealistic place. But, we're not really us - we're copies of the people he wanted to bring in.

[written]

[morganknight]

Ah. So you're a clone. And so is this Twilight, I take it. And you're having problems with that...

But why can't the dream come true?

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[its_decided]

Because, technically? I'm not real. I'm just a computer program. Something made up because the real me couldn't be brought in. I'm not even sure I can return to my world if it comes to it.

[written]

[morganknight]

...Why does being a computer program make you less real?

[bluesuit_hoofy]

It depends on the future.

And on how sure you are.

[Since being de-aged, he's had plenty to chew over himself. He didn't get to keep the full memories of the life his older self had had with Rose, but the snippets that had been freshest in his memory remain.]

[its_decided]

On the future... and how sure I am...?

Wow, that's... a lot to think about.

[text, belatedly]

[bluesuit_hoofy]

[He's really probably not the best pony to talk to about this.]

I take it you became your older self as well?