[He guessed right on the performances, at least. Part of him hopes he gets to see one someday.]
So you got ridiculed because you didn't have the strength to defeat a creature? But your performances are supposed to be entertaining, and if they enjoyed all of that, why would something like not being able to defeat a creature cause this? It doesn't seem right.
I would say that it should have rung a few alarm bells in your head, but I guess when it came down to how things ended up, I can't really blame you for the decision you made in buying the amulet. It was for the wrong reasons, but you couldn't have known that it would do such things to you. And given the circumstances, it sounds like what put you through all that was an unfair treatment by other ponies.
Forgiving yourself isn't easy, and that's the thing. Mistakes like that can haunt you for a long time. Even make you think less or differently of yourself. But what matters is if you're actively attempting to better yourself because of it. [He's actually caused and almost caused some incidents back on his own homeworld and in other worlds as well. It took him quite some time to forgive himself for what's happened. There's also the case of his origins...] I know what it feels like to be ridiculed and made fun of. Even though it was for different reasons than you. It was for reasons I couldn't help; I was simply different. It hurts, though. And I can't imagine how much more it hurt you.
Maybe that's why it's hard for you to forgive yourself. Because it's hard to justify all that happened, even without the possession and what came afterward. But it's all in the past now, and you're here, and you can still do performances, whether you currently do or not. I'm sure there'd be plenty of ponies who would love to watch them. I know I definitely would.
I think it'd be easier if you came to terms with what happened rather than trying to forgive yourself. So long as you're trying to make a better pony out of yourself, using what you know and what you can learn, you can make up for past mistakes and look towards the future.
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So you got ridiculed because you didn't have the strength to defeat a creature? But your performances are supposed to be entertaining, and if they enjoyed all of that, why would something like not being able to defeat a creature cause this? It doesn't seem right.
I would say that it should have rung a few alarm bells in your head, but I guess when it came down to how things ended up, I can't really blame you for the decision you made in buying the amulet. It was for the wrong reasons, but you couldn't have known that it would do such things to you. And given the circumstances, it sounds like what put you through all that was an unfair treatment by other ponies.
Forgiving yourself isn't easy, and that's the thing. Mistakes like that can haunt you for a long time. Even make you think less or differently of yourself. But what matters is if you're actively attempting to better yourself because of it. [He's actually caused and almost caused some incidents back on his own homeworld and in other worlds as well. It took him quite some time to forgive himself for what's happened. There's also the case of his origins...] I know what it feels like to be ridiculed and made fun of. Even though it was for different reasons than you. It was for reasons I couldn't help; I was simply different. It hurts, though. And I can't imagine how much more it hurt you.
Maybe that's why it's hard for you to forgive yourself. Because it's hard to justify all that happened, even without the possession and what came afterward. But it's all in the past now, and you're here, and you can still do performances, whether you currently do or not. I'm sure there'd be plenty of ponies who would love to watch them. I know I definitely would.
I think it'd be easier if you came to terms with what happened rather than trying to forgive yourself. So long as you're trying to make a better pony out of yourself, using what you know and what you can learn, you can make up for past mistakes and look towards the future.