kuukai: (11. yeah maybe)
Sakura Kyouko ([personal profile] kuukai) wrote in [community profile] mylittlejamjar2014-10-16 04:20 pm

7th confession: This I believe.

visual

[ A red bear sits on of the Agency’s roof. She’s never really gotten out of the habit of hanging out on rooftops. Even turning into a bear and getting a real place to sleep can’t break it. ]

So, Equestria. Got a question I’ve been meanin’ ta ask ya. What do ya believe in?

[ She’s got a stick of Pocky half-hanging out of her mouth, and she chews it idly. There’s a gorgeous sunset which is reflecting off of her fur. The image is filled with oranges and yellows. ]

Now, tha’s diff’rnt from what ya believe, see. I believe gravity exists, an’ tha’ everythin’ balances, an yadda yadda. Whatever else.

No… when yer losin’ hope, I wanna know what ya turn to. Who ya trust. What ya know’s right.

[ She shrugs and pulls out another stick of Pocky, the previous one chewed away. ] S’just a good thing ta remind yerself of sometimes, I think. Ya always gotta know why yer doin’ whatcher doin’. Otherwise ya might as well not do it.

I usedta believe in God. I mean, I still do, but I got ta thinkin’ he din’t have time fer magical girls like me. We struck out on our own, we got powerful an’ we paid the consequences. I still believe in Him.

But I also believed in my dad. I think I believed in him just as much. He’s how I knew God. Tha’s why it was bad when…

[ She chokes up and shakes her head. ] Well… never mind, tha’s private.

But tha’s not what drives me anymore. Not th’only thing, anyway. I still remember my dad, and I still pray ta God, but… things change. I’m not fightin’ fer them anymore. I think I’m fightin’ fer you.

[ A weak smile. ] One o’ you more than the rest. But still. … Heh, I dunno if this even makes much sense. But… I was talkin’ with Jappleack, an’ I don’ even think mosta what I want ta do is fightin’ anymore. Damn place… but… whether I’m fightin’ or not, s’still because there’s somethin’ I believe in. Somethin’ here.

[ She thinks for a moment, trying to figure out if there’s a better way to end it. She reaches out to turn off the recording. ]

Oh! Wait. One more thing. We got the shrine an’ tha’s good, but I was thinkin’ about creatin’ a meditative space out by th’forest. Let me know if ya’d have any interest in that.

An’, yeah, answer my question. What ya believe in. I really do want ta know.
ponycure_dream: (Nozomi: Relief)

[personal profile] ponycure_dream 2014-10-16 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
You just have to give reason to.