⚜02 [Two posts, both text]

[downstairslife]

[FIRST POST - Has her name attached, sent the afternoon of January 15]

I do wonder where one could find employment here. Should any of you find yourselves in need of someone to manage your correspondence, or whatever sundry affairs you might have, know that I have no want for experience.

I also have other talents that might be of interest, and of which I can divulge upon private inquiry.

[SECOND POST - Anon, sent later that evening]

How do you live with the regret of not killing someone you should have cut down long ago?

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[text] - Response to SECOND

[thedoctorsmate]

By realizing that murder is never the answer. However much easier you think it will be, however much you think they deserve it, taking away someone's life is wrong. We're not gods, and that's not our right.

[downstairslife]

I know that I am not a god.

But I worked under someone whose actions were unmistakably the cause of immeasurable suffering and hundreds upon thousands of deaths. I didn't know that this was what she intended at the time, not exactly, but I did know that should she ever possess the power to do it, she'd be willing.

I should not have lent her my hand--I know this now--but her power was such that only death could have stopped her.

["I could have prevented a mass genocide but missed the opportunity", basically.]

[thedoctorsmate]

There's always another way. Strip her powers, lock her up, figure out why she even wants to do it and take away that reason from her. You're not at fault for anything you were tricked into, but you'd have been living with the regret of murder on your head if you'd done that.

["I don't believe in no-win scenarios," basically.]

[downstairslife]

[...]

I suppose I've more than enough time to think about it here.

[She's still not sure that anything short of killing that little asshole would have worked, but it's pointless to argue that.]

I'm just tired of living with the weight of regret.

[thedoctorsmate]

Believe you, me, I know what that's like, but you can't live in the past. You'll just end up hating yourself for every little thing you can think you should have done differently. 'If I'd only said this when I said that.' 'If I'd just turned left instead of right.' We've all got regrets and it sounds like you're living with a hell of a one.

There's no point imagining yourself trading one regret for another. Live your life now, as best as you can! You can make friends here, good and true ones who will do everything in their power to help you once we do figure out a way to get home.

[This is very much a do as I say, not as I do, but the person reading this doesn't need to know that about Donna.]

[1/2][text][????? filter] - response to first

[bornoflove]

I know of a place which may need your aid, if you wish to look into it.

[2/2][text][????? filter] - response to second

[bornoflove]

...You don't. You simply live.

[downstairslife]

I suppose.

If I could only find things to fill that emptiness with.

[bornoflove]

Perhaps.

Do you have anyone of importance, to you?

[downstairslife]

Not here.

I'm not sure if anyone I held dear back home counts for that question in this world.

[bornoflove]

Then live to go back to them. That might be enough.

And be thankful they aren't here.

[response to second]

[discorderly]

Oh, I make it a practice to never regret anything~

[downstairslife]

Oh.

Has it been working well for you?

[discorderly]

Very well!

[anonymous text; response to second message]

[millionbitpipes]

Not sure. Day at a time, I guess.

[downstairslife]

I've already received advice from others on the matter, but this is how I've been taking it.

I've done many things that I regret, but this one outshines them all in depth and bitterness.

[text] - response to second

[break_a_melody]

Not a day goes by when I don't think of what could've been had I not chosen to stay my hand. I suppose all I can do is bide my time and prepare for a second opportunity.

[downstairslife]

Should she ever come here, I suppose that would be my course of action.

I only hope that I would have the power.

[break_a_melody]

Do you fear her?

[downstairslife]

It's only natural, I suppose. She has the command of our nation's troops; she possesses unparalleled deftness in swords and the power of magic.

I have none of that.