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mylittlejamjar2014-02-12 12:09 am
magicalrealist) wrote in mylittlejamjar2014-02-12 12:09 am
Entry tags:
- !npc: honeycomb/queen melissa,
- at4w: pollo/mechakara [au],
- mlp: pinkie pie [au2],
- mlp: rainbow dash [au1],
- mlp: trixie lulamoon [sn],
- mlp: twilight sparkle [au1],
- pretty cure: nozomi yumehara [au],
- tmnt: donatello hamato [au1],
- touhou project: patchouli knowledge [au],
- zzz_bleach: orihime inoue [ou],
- zzz_mlp: princess luna [au1],
- zzz_mlp: twilight sparkle [sn],
- zzz_mlp: vatan haini [oc],
- zzz_persona: yukiko amagi [ou],
- zzz_reboot: hexadecimal [ou],
- zzz_touhou: reimu hakurei [ou]
10th E-Book: The Crippling Shame of Reflection [Visual]
(Twilight's face is a bright red with half of it hidden behind a hoof. It takes her some time to find the composure to actually speak after that cripplingly incriminating post, but after some time, she speaks up. Her displeasure is suppressed and her tone is flat.)
I just want to make one thing clear: I'm not attempting to gain sympathy here. There's no sympathy to be gained from this. All I'm doing is explaining myself.
(She sighs.)
Yes, I do feel uncomfortable around changelings. Yes, it's racism and yes, I'm aware of it. I know that racism is unacceptable, but it's a part of me I haven't fully worked out yet. Simply put: all of my previous interactions with changelings were less than preferable.
There was the royal wedding, of course. The marriage of Cadence and Shining Armor, my now sister-in-law and my brother. The first invasion happened, it was repelled, the marriage was saved and it ended at that...for everyone but me. Mayfield made me see...experience an alternate ending to that day. An ending where Chrysalis won. Everyone I knew and loved died. Equestria was falling apart and even the changelings were dying off. Nobody won in that future; try as I did, everything lead to failure. It all died with a whimper. The logical conclusion would've been to direct my emotions solely at Chrysalis...but it's not easy being logical when you see the world around you literally fall apart.
So naturally, current events left me incredibly uncomfortable.
I'm not going to deny what's there. I want to work it out of my system, but until then, that's what I have to deal with. To all changelings listening in, I apologize for my negative behavior. It in no way represents Equestria's outlook on interspecies relationships; only mine. Hain, consider this an official apology on behalf of Andrew and myself. To everyone else...I apologize.
(Twilight refrains from mentioning Chrysalis any more than she needs to, for risk of enraging herself and worsening everyone else's opinion of her. She rolls up her scroll after her message ends.)
I just want to make one thing clear: I'm not attempting to gain sympathy here. There's no sympathy to be gained from this. All I'm doing is explaining myself.
(She sighs.)
Yes, I do feel uncomfortable around changelings. Yes, it's racism and yes, I'm aware of it. I know that racism is unacceptable, but it's a part of me I haven't fully worked out yet. Simply put: all of my previous interactions with changelings were less than preferable.
There was the royal wedding, of course. The marriage of Cadence and Shining Armor, my now sister-in-law and my brother. The first invasion happened, it was repelled, the marriage was saved and it ended at that...for everyone but me. Mayfield made me see...experience an alternate ending to that day. An ending where Chrysalis won. Everyone I knew and loved died. Equestria was falling apart and even the changelings were dying off. Nobody won in that future; try as I did, everything lead to failure. It all died with a whimper. The logical conclusion would've been to direct my emotions solely at Chrysalis...but it's not easy being logical when you see the world around you literally fall apart.
So naturally, current events left me incredibly uncomfortable.
I'm not going to deny what's there. I want to work it out of my system, but until then, that's what I have to deal with. To all changelings listening in, I apologize for my negative behavior. It in no way represents Equestria's outlook on interspecies relationships; only mine. Hain, consider this an official apology on behalf of Andrew and myself. To everyone else...I apologize.
(Twilight refrains from mentioning Chrysalis any more than she needs to, for risk of enraging herself and worsening everyone else's opinion of her. She rolls up her scroll after her message ends.)
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I know I don't say this enough, Nozomi, but...thank you. For being a true friend.
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Are you gonna be okay?
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...Yeah. I'll be okay. I just need a little time, is all.
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...If I decide to go spend time with changelings, will you be there to make sure I don't go overboard?
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...and of course! I'll be happy to accompany you!
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