mylittlejamjar | Entry 011 [Accidental Visual] Post body switch panic (Forward dated to the 2nd)

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Entry 011 [Accidental Visual] Post body switch panic (Forward dated to the 2nd)

[The scroll comes on without him being aware of it, and it's showing what looks like a small ruined town and a horrified looking dragon staring at his own claws and the soup all over him. He looks back and fourth a few times, the panic and fear on his face is pretty clear too. Nobody would believe he hadn't done this, he was sure if it. The path of destruction wasn't enough, the few claw marks he could see through the soup made it pretty clear... even if he hadn't been in control of his body, how many would believe that?]

No... no... no...no.....

[Skyfire doesn't look for the scroll, he doesn't even stop to check if he has his saddle bags on... he just starts running and bolts in the direction of the closest forest. He'd never be able to go back near a populated area again... It would be like being stuck back on earth again... alone... Why... Why had he even thought that he'd have a chance here...]

[The scroll cuts out with a visual of him running out of sight, and one might get a glimpse of the despondent and hurt look on his face. He was totally unaware that it was just Minako's movie set... Being in the same area as any destruction on earth had him blamed for it, why would it be any different here?]

((ooc: Action replies welcome and encouraged, sine he left the scroll behind. Also, Link of lego town for scale, assuming ponies would be about chest height to an average human))

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[When she saw his head shake no, Trixie filled with relief. You have no idea. The unicorn hates that thing for what it did to her and what it made her do.]

Good... Nopony should ever touch that thing...

...There's soup all over you. Do you remember eating it? Was it poisoned?

[Trixie asks because even from the short time together during the dungeon library delve, he doesn't seem like the type of person to do something like that. At least without any outside interference.]

[... there his head goes back under his wing, and he seems to be shaking slightly. He just doesn't know and that scares him.]

I... I wasn't in my body...

[His voice is quite muffled and it almost sounds like he's crying a bit. What was he supposed to think? He'd been blamed for far worse that he hadn't done... This time, it was his body that had done it... the proof was everywhere. He wasn't, and yet he was, responsible for it... but either way, he was positive he'd be blamed for it.]

...Oh. Oh! So that's what happened...

[Just because Trixie didn't use the scrolls often recently doesn't mean she wasn't paying attention to the messages and conversations going on through them.]

It wasn't jut you. There were many others that had exchanged bodies. Innumerable outsiders and natives had been exchanged, but I was one of the lucky ones.

It seems as if you weren't.

[That... didn't seem to be the right thing to say as he just seems to curl up smaller and starts to shake a bit more. He's pretty quiet, but it doesn't seem like he's calming down any.

He's been the scapegoat for so long that he's pretty much gotten used to being blamed for everything... Why would this be any different? This time, at least in a way, he had done it.]

[This... confuses Trixie. It wasn't any sort of item or corruption affecting him. It was a full-blown body swap.]

What do you mean "no"? It wasn't you who did this.

... Never stopped anyone from blaming everything on me before...

[His voice sounds choked up and like he's hurting pretty bad. Clearly, this had brought up some bad memories.]

[It's now that Trixie realizes that this could potentially make Hoovesweek.

Great, Just great.]

...We'll just have to explain that it wasn't you. Besides, you weren't even corrupted by an evil amulet.

Even though people will blame you, they will somehow stop caring and somehow forgive you. I've done way worse than devastated a town and I still have thousands of fans all across Equestria.

I've had many people forgive me for what I did while I wore The Alicorn Amulet and I don't know why. But you? You don't even need to be forgiven.

... I might as well just leave... I don't want to get chased away with spears and arrows again... Nobody's ever listened to me before.

[Yeah, this is clearly something that left some pretty big mental and emotional scars for him.]

... You aren't a 'demon', a 'monster' or a 'horrible beast'.... Nobody wants a monster around...

[He slowly struggles to his feet and starts trying to stumble deeper into the forest. If nothing else, he needed to put distance between himself and the damage.]

[Hey, did Trixie decide the conversation to be over? No, she didn't. A mall explosion of smoke and glitter occurs in front of Skyfire as Trixie runs into it before it disperses.]

Stop. I'm listening to you right now, so speak.

[He just gives her a sad, lost look.]

What else is there to say? I'm nothing but trouble and destruction, and nobody will want me anywhere near them anymore?

[Because that was what usually happened when something got destroyed and blamed on him... if they weren't outright trying to kill him at least. Being huge and different looking was enough to deem him dangerous and scary on earth...]

[Trixie really isn't all that good with encouraging sad people to be happy again, but she'll try.]

...Look, if you don't try to regain your life back, you'll never know if that's true or not.

Trust me, my life was ruined before. And now I have it back because I wanted my life back. That's all you have to do.

[He just sighs and tries to smile... but it's clearly not reaching his eyes.]

I've wanted my life back for a long time... sometimes trying just isn't enough... I survive... it's all I have left.

[He sounds so tired, and old. Though it was nice to know that at least there was someone here that wouldn't blame him.]

... Thanks though. [He did appreciate the effort, even if his own self doubt wasn't letting up yet.]

But don't you have anything you want!? If all I ever did was just survive, I'd still be on that rock farm and feeling dead inside...!

Just... tell me what you want.

...

[He lets out a sigh and lays down, for once almost looking as old as he feels... or at least his eyes do. He'd told Billy in a less controlled manner... what was the difference if one more knew?]

I'm old Trixie... very old... I... I'm tired of not being able to settle anywhere. To outlive everyone I've ever known... I've been chased off, hated and hunted for more years than I care to count... just for existing in the same area as a town or city.

[He looked away from her and sighed once more.]

I'm not even sure what I want anymore...

Then they're wrong. They're all wrong, because you would never destroy any towns, whether whether or not they're fake or real.

There must be something you want. Everypony wants something. A dream out in the stars that they can reach to.

[She sits down and looks up, even though it isn't night yet.]

There's a star for everyone up there. I haven't found mine yet, but I'm going to keep trying to attain it. Think about what star you want. Because yours is still up there somewhere, too.

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... Doesn't stop them from being afraid of, hating, and blaming me...

[He sighs and refrains from telling her that he's really originally from another 'star' and that he'll likely never reach that star and home ever again. He knew what she was trying to say.]

... I... can't have what I want... I've learned that the hard way. More than once...

It should. Such rudeness is never to be tolerated.

[Trixie sighs as she looks back over to Skyfire.]

...You still haven't told me what you want. Just what is it?

...Would it help if I gave you a private performance? I have a lot of good stories...

... I...

[He swallows hard and puts his head down.]

I want to stop having to watch the few friends I have grow old and die... I want to be able to settle down somewhere and not have to worry about being hated and feared in a few years because the new population in town is afraid of me... I want to go home... but that's not possible either...

[There were more, but those were depressing enough. He wasn't even going to start on his species confusion.]

[Well. Trixie isn't really sure what to say about that except to offer to tell him a story again.

That's really all she knows how to do. Sorry, Skyfire.]

[The offer was appreciated, but he figured he should go clean up... and avoid making one of the few that liked him upset.]

I... should probably go wash this mess off...

[And then go hide was left unsaid, but even with Trixie's reassurance, he was still feeling pretty low.]

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Entry 011 [Accidental Visual] Post body switch panic (Forward dated to the 2nd)

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