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[Accidental Video] -7th Shadow- Get to me...

[The feed opens on Crmsn talking to a photograph rather abruptly.]

-even reminds me of Serre a bit...definitely has that same tenacity as the kids. You'd never think they'd run out of steam. I think you'd like her. She's gettin' married soon too...I know right? Never thought I'd have the chance to give someone away at least for another twenty years.

[He's sitting by the window of his room, half draped across the sill in the early morning light, with a stuffed purple rabbit nestled up in the crook of one of his forelegs, and smiling wistfully at a photograph.]

Hey love...It was Valentines Day recently y'know. Well...not what they call it here, but the sentiment is the same....

[He shifts a little and softly taps the photograph with a hoof.]

Wonder what you did for yours. Probably would have spent it in the lab, working on the next big project. Heh...y'know that's something I miss the most I think. Sitting back to back in the lab and knowing you were there. That any time I could just turn around and smile at you and...and you'd look over and smile back.

[His voice softens considerably.]

...I miss you, love. I miss the kids...I miss our home, and our friends. There's a big gapin' hole in my heart...I keep tryin' to fill it up, but after a while...there's just nothin' to grab onto. Isn't anything I can do about it either.

[He sniffs, then scoffs a little and covers his eyes with a hoof. Voice going from low to strained.]

I feel like I'm slowly losin' your face. I think that's the biggest hurt. All I have is this damn photo...this world couldn't even let it be normal...had to mess with it and make it different too. I think if it wasn't for that magic of yours I'd-

[He shifts to reflexively rub at his chest, a pained expression pulling across his face.]

You're so close and so far away. I can't reach you...m'not gonna stop trying though.

[He takes a shakey breath and lets it out hard...then pulls the photo up and gives it a gentle kiss. He settles on the sill, half cradling the picture and the rabbit protectively.]

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I...

[He sighs tiredly, shifting a little uncomfortably.]

A long time ago when I was a kid...not like...this, mind. It was a lot more...domestic?

[Kidnapping was domestic, right?]

[He hesitates a moment, noting that it didn't look like a very easy topic to talk about.]

You don't...have to tell me about it if you don't want to.

[He'd listen if it helps, of course, but it really isn't any of his business.]

[He shakes his head a little, frowning slightly, more to himself than at Tadashi.]

Nah it's not that, it's just...kind of a weird story.

I haven't been home since I was thirteen. Some jackalopes took me hostage during a robbery, and...pawned me off to some local human trafficking organization when they were done with me. I was shipped off to Thailand soon after...spent a long time trying to get back home after that. Somewhere around the point where I turned eighteen I gave up on trying to get home, focused more on rebuilding a life for myself...

[His eyes widen a bit.] Oh man...that...sounds really rough.

[He isn't sure what else to say.]

But you managed...rebuilding something for yourself, I mean...

Yeah...

[He slouches a little and sighs again.]

A house...a wife...three kids...bunch of friends.

[He frowns slightly and looks down.]

You know the sad part is that the opportunity to go back home to my parents was still there...I think I was just scared to take the last few steps....thought I'd changed too much.

[It's a scary thought that the same thing might happen here too...]

[He's silent for a moment as he thinks about that.] Yeah...I can understand how that would be hard...but you'd never know unless you tried, right?

Even if you can never really go back because of how much you changed...I'm sure your family would appreciate knowing that you're all right. And maybe they'd like to get to know who you are now.

A fair point...

[He lets his head rest on the sill silently.]

I guess it couldn't hurt....at least let them know they have grandkids...m'sure they'd like that.

[He nods.] It'd just be a shame to never take the opportunity to see them again while you still have it.

Heh...yeah...

[He smiles to himself then looks back to the scroll.]

Thanks Tadashi...

[He shrugs a bit.] I didn't really do much. But I'm good for listening if you need it.

Talkin' things out helps...sort out your mind sometimes...

[He chuckles a little...then diverts the subject ever so slightly.]

Glad to see you're still firmly rooted to the ground, be-tee-dubya.

[He laughs a bit.] Yeah...I mean, floating was all right, but it's nice being able to move around again without having to worry about drifting off into the world's atmosphere.

Right? I'm all for rainbows, but that's a grim way to achieve them.

[He laughs a little...wow Crmsn that was dark even for you.]

...Rainbows?

[He doesn't quite get it, mostly because no one's yet explained to him the way people leave this world.]

Oh...uh...

[Oh...yeah he probably wouldn't yet would he.]

This place uh...well...you see when someone...."dies" here...rather is "taken" by the Pale Pony...they...lemme just show you...

[He holds up a hoof, and concentrates, coalescing his shadows into a miniature version of himself that hops around a couple times then...bursts into rainbows.]

[Tadashi blinks with wide eyes.]

Wait, so did that just - ?

Did it die? No...it was just an illusion...

[He can do that.]

But that's a thing that can happen here...to us...

Oh...

[Huh.]

Not something you'd expect from such a bright and cheerful looking place, huh?

[He tilts his head a little.]

Yeah, a little more, uh...morbid than I imagined.

Y'know I thought the exact same thing? I think it was either my first month...or second month here that it really sank in just how disarming this place is. It's almost like it was designed to trip you up.

Yeah really. Even that is really deceptive, I mean...aren't rainbows supposed to be a good thing?

[And not a sign that you were going to die?]

Something beautiful from something tragic. It's incredibly ironic.

Or just kinda twisted.

Also an accurate surmise.

At least we get a break from the chaos every so often, right?

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