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APPLE FACTS 16: YOU SCREWED UP HARD [Forward Dated to Monday] - Visual

Everyone shut up.

[Oh look who's back. And looks like she just woke up from one of the longest sleeps imaginable, and not one fraught with pleasant dreams. She had taken at least a little time to go through the scrolls when she got back, see how everything else had went and what was being said.

She almost wished she hadn't.]

Before we get this shit tour on the road, step one, let's clear something up. This bullshit is only one person's fault. This sure as hell isn't the fault of anyone who went in and and it sure as hell isn't Dandy's fault for trying to get everyone I dragged in out, it's my fault. I was told this was a dumbass idea and I didn't listen. There'll be more on that shit in just a minute but hey before we go there I have crap I need to tell you about what we found out inside this goddamn thing.

Calice has changed the palace in Canterlot into some kind of freaky-tiki mad science laboratory. It looks like some 90s villain corporate asshole had a field day designing their hideout and then devolves into shithole dungeons where she keeps anyone who disobeys her and anyone who she's bringing in from other worlds. She puts you in a little asshole cell and gives you the bare minimum of food we eat here, and then she stares at you like a shithead and changes your soul so it's ready to become a pony if you're a newpony she's bringing in here. If it's someone who's disobeyed her it's pretty much the same thing except it's just staring and staring until she gets whatever information she damn well wants. She's got rooms too where she has the princesses captured, has her own Element bearers stashed away, and has the element bearers from here that have disappeared held up, because bitch has to have this shit under wraps. Turned the goddamn throne room there into...hell. I dunno. it's a room that leads to outside now and back to a building where she's keeping...where I'm pretty sure she's keeping Twilight. Or her. Or goddamn whatever is happening now maybe I'll put this shit in writing because I can barely understand it. I can't focus enough on it because it was a mindscrew and I just...hell, I...just...

Shit.

...I thought this could've worked. I guess I thought, hell, I dunno, that maybe hearing everyone else would flip some switch and...

...The third time we went in went so well. She actually responded. And I thought that, maybe, she'd respond more if it was with others she recognized. I guess I thought it'd work like some kind of magic goddamn lightswitch and that while it wouldn't solve all our problems it'd help make headway. And then I thought it'd help if others knew who she was and was about and...

I over did it. I was told by others who knew better than me that I was over doing it and I didn't listen. I just thought that...the last time, if we took a step forward and I was part of the group then...hell, actual bearers would take it even further. Ponies who were a shitton more natural and better than me at this crap. But I screwed up. I was wrong, because I didn't know what the hell my dumbass actually thought aside from something magical was going to happen because I'd been shown this could work. I jumped the gun, I screwed up any progress we'd made doing this before because I didn't know what the hell I was talking about. I lost Fluttershy because of it, and I hurt all of you.

You all are behaving in some dumb bullshit over this. You want to know who's at fault? It's me. You want to know who to blame, blame me. You want to get angry at someone over it and mess with them, mess with me.

For that matter, now that I'm back Air Jappleack is grounded. I'm not going to stop anyone dumb enough to try and find some way to go in, but I'm sure as hell not going to be dragging anyone else in there to get caught because of my dumb bullshit. I'm gonna tell you not to go in there because that thing is probably pissed the hell off and going to immediately jump on anyone going into it, but hell. What do I know.

I'm sorry. I know that doesn't mean or do anything at this point but I'm sorry. I thought....I dunno.

I thought this could work. But I didn't plan enough, I didn't have enough or given enough information, this is on me. No one else.

You wanna scream at me, I'll be here. You wanna do it in person, I'll be the asshole trying to meditate on Sweet Apple Acres.

[Private to the Mane Six]

I'm sorry. I should have been there. But Dandy had a much better chance of getting everyone out if everything went to shit, and I needed to take what chance I could to find out what the ponies inside wanted to tell us. Maybe if it had been both of us warping together we could have done it quicker. This is on me. I misread everything and I hurt all of us.

If you want me to piss off for awhile? I get it. I will. Cause I can't make up for this shit.

[Private to Dandy]

You were right. I was wrong. I should have listened to you, and because I didn't I absolutely screwed us and got one of my best friends hurt.

This is my fault, entirely, not yours.

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I told him it didn' actually matter. [ She grumbles, wiping her paws off on the counter. ] An' 'm not even thinkin' abou' cheatin' on Teds so don' say anythin' like that. Geez.

Hey, I didn't say shit on that.

[Her voice is light for that at least. But after a moment, she just looks at the table again.]

Enjoy this while it lasts, just kind of getting to dick around. I think she's gonna bring the hammer down on us soon for this bullshit.

[ Kyouko freezes a little at that. She takes a deep breath. ]

Well. Never though this'd last forever. [ But she'd really hoped.

Suddenly she doesn't have an appetite. She pushes the tin towards the pony. ]

[Jappleack closes her eyes a moment, just...trying to breath. God. She didn't want this. Let alone for Kyouko, for the other kids stuck here as well.

She looks at the pie tin for a moment before looking up at Kyouko.

She tries to smile.]

Sorry.

[She can feel the tears coming, but she doesn't care, and when she speaks again her voice cracks a little.]

Not really hungry.

No.

[ Not accepting Jappleack's apology. Because it's useless, and she doesn't need it. ]

Me either. [ And to that second thing... maybe Equestria really is changing her. ]

[For a moment, Jappleack just sits there, staring at the pie tin. It's as if she thinks she might find something there, some kind of answer, anything.

It feels so odd not to be hungry. It always has, when it's occurred for her. And always just felt bad. She shouldn't feel this bad, just looking at a half-eaten apple pie, watching juices run down from the pie into the tin.

The first sob surprises her. She'd managed to get this far without sobbing. But once it's out it's like a flood gate opening, and the world becomes a weird, terribly formed blur before her tears.

The sobbing won't stop, and she can't stop, and she just feels herself letting her head fall to the table, resting it against the wood.

Crying impotently.]

God...

[ She feels like she's invading a private moment, with her sticky hands and her fur smelling of apples.

She sits blankly at the counter with JA, staring dully at her friend going to pieces. ] D'ya think...

[ She hasn't considered this since the day she got here, but... ] D'ya think it's hell, ta get somethin' so good an' have it snatched away?

D'ya think tha's where we are?

[She tries to calm herself, her sobbing settling down to dull tremors so she can at least speak. She shakes her head a little, just barely raising it from the counter.]

No.

Think...maybe, losing something like that, it isn't too different from hell. But this place?

No.

It's a world, just like any other and it's living and breathing and goddamn alive. It's worth fighting for, to try and keep it that way.

Of course s'buckin' worth fightin' for. Even if it was hell it'd be worth fightin' for. Dammit...

[ She pounds her fist on the counter. ] S'all we got.

[All we got? Well. Not necessarily. Not for her at least. When this is all over and if it ends in a way that helps, Japple will still have something to go to. Her friends and most the ponies in her world might be assholes, but she'd still have her friends, as they were. And she'd still have her farm, and most importantly she'd have her family and sister.

Kyouko had nothing to go back to. Nothing but oblivion, from what Japple could make out. Not even barely on the road to becoming a woman, and whatever she could have had on that road was cut short.

Japple sits there for one more moment before getting up. And this time?

She's the one who goes to hug the bear. Part of it is her own emotional vulnerability at the moment, and just a desire to hug someone again. Part of it was still her own grieving. Some of it now grieving for Kyouko's situation.]

[ Kyouko tries not to let the tears brim in her eyes but they come anyway. She half-heartedly hugs Jappleack back. ]

She better not just kick us out. [ She grumbles. ] I can take pain, we all can. But if we were brought here then she better let us do what we were damn supposedta do.

[Jappleack, usually so quick to hope, to have something to say, is just quiet at that. She wants to have something. Some kind of words of assurance to offer the girl, but she can barely think of anything. She feels so...detached. And sad. And maybe not as bad as the breakdown she had suffered in her own home, but God it feels so close to it it's unwelcome.

She takes a few breathes, trying to calm herself down. And once she does, she works at Sakura.]

...Whatever happens we'll all face it. Together.

You won't be alone.

[It's all she can think to say, the only kind of assurance she feels she can give at the moment.]

Until I am.

[ Kyouko says it bitterly, knowing it's not helping her grieving friend, only partly caring. ] Ya may be with people right up till ya die. But afters, yer alone.

[ She already died once, why is this so hard? ] Dammit. [ She looks pleadingly at Jappleack, and for once her youth shows through, her helplessness. ] I... I don't want ta die again.

[It surprises her sometimes just how young Kyouko is, and it's rare times like these that she realizes Kyouko is still just barely finished having been a child.

It's hard not to lapse back into crying at that. She wants to, but she keeps herself from it. No. She's cried enough for now. At the moment she has to be stronger, at least try to be. For her friend.

She wants to tell her she won't die. That they'll find a way to make sure she can stay here, stay with Teddie, something. But Japple can't promise that. She knows that.

She just shakes her head a moment, saying the only thing she thinks she can promise.]

I promise you. No matter what happens, when it happens, or how this ends. You won't be alone.

I promise.

[ She doesn't think she really believes it -- maybe Jappleack has good intentions, but the horror of mortality ... it isn't something that can be fought, even if you're a magical girl or a magical space pony.

But she nods dully, staring at the cold pie. It makes her feel a little better. Just a bit. ]

[Japple's eyes just rest on the pie as well, looking at the juices that have cooled and coalesced in their tin. And she just thinks.

This sucks. This really sucks. Not sad anymore. Not even necessarily angry. Just annoyed as hell at it, all of it. But especially at how somber this shit is getting.

It's true. She can't make any promise to Kyouko that she won't die again. Or even on the loneliness. And that annoys the hell out of here. Not sad now, no. Just indignant and wanting to do...to do something. As morbid as it is to think...who knows what comes next. What will happen next, or how much time the girl will get to enjoy life.

Jappleack really only knows that she should get to.

And this fucking navel gazing, this staring at a pie...the hell is she doing?

To hell with it. Ain't gonna be no more staring at this mother.

Without warning, Japple slams her face into the pie tin, and begins to devour the pie noisily.

That'll show you pie.]

[ At least Kyouko's smiling a little now. Guess she liked it. ] Hey, geez, not all of it. [ She steals another piece for herself, snatching it from the gaping jaws of Jappleack. Good food is a constant across all universes. ]

[Jappleack begrudgingly lets Kyouko take another piece of the pie - usually it wouldn't be a wise idea to get between apple anything and Japple's mouth but she lets it slide this time. She still licks the tin clean like a weird jerk, just because nothing should go wasted when it comes to apples.

Smacking her lips after she finishes, she says.]

So you said there's this fox running around with pants and it bothers the hell out of you?

Let's pants this asshole.

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