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APPLE FACTS 16: YOU SCREWED UP HARD [Forward Dated to Monday] - Visual

Everyone shut up.

[Oh look who's back. And looks like she just woke up from one of the longest sleeps imaginable, and not one fraught with pleasant dreams. She had taken at least a little time to go through the scrolls when she got back, see how everything else had went and what was being said.

She almost wished she hadn't.]

Before we get this shit tour on the road, step one, let's clear something up. This bullshit is only one person's fault. This sure as hell isn't the fault of anyone who went in and and it sure as hell isn't Dandy's fault for trying to get everyone I dragged in out, it's my fault. I was told this was a dumbass idea and I didn't listen. There'll be more on that shit in just a minute but hey before we go there I have crap I need to tell you about what we found out inside this goddamn thing.

Calice has changed the palace in Canterlot into some kind of freaky-tiki mad science laboratory. It looks like some 90s villain corporate asshole had a field day designing their hideout and then devolves into shithole dungeons where she keeps anyone who disobeys her and anyone who she's bringing in from other worlds. She puts you in a little asshole cell and gives you the bare minimum of food we eat here, and then she stares at you like a shithead and changes your soul so it's ready to become a pony if you're a newpony she's bringing in here. If it's someone who's disobeyed her it's pretty much the same thing except it's just staring and staring until she gets whatever information she damn well wants. She's got rooms too where she has the princesses captured, has her own Element bearers stashed away, and has the element bearers from here that have disappeared held up, because bitch has to have this shit under wraps. Turned the goddamn throne room there into...hell. I dunno. it's a room that leads to outside now and back to a building where she's keeping...where I'm pretty sure she's keeping Twilight. Or her. Or goddamn whatever is happening now maybe I'll put this shit in writing because I can barely understand it. I can't focus enough on it because it was a mindscrew and I just...hell, I...just...

Shit.

...I thought this could've worked. I guess I thought, hell, I dunno, that maybe hearing everyone else would flip some switch and...

...The third time we went in went so well. She actually responded. And I thought that, maybe, she'd respond more if it was with others she recognized. I guess I thought it'd work like some kind of magic goddamn lightswitch and that while it wouldn't solve all our problems it'd help make headway. And then I thought it'd help if others knew who she was and was about and...

I over did it. I was told by others who knew better than me that I was over doing it and I didn't listen. I just thought that...the last time, if we took a step forward and I was part of the group then...hell, actual bearers would take it even further. Ponies who were a shitton more natural and better than me at this crap. But I screwed up. I was wrong, because I didn't know what the hell my dumbass actually thought aside from something magical was going to happen because I'd been shown this could work. I jumped the gun, I screwed up any progress we'd made doing this before because I didn't know what the hell I was talking about. I lost Fluttershy because of it, and I hurt all of you.

You all are behaving in some dumb bullshit over this. You want to know who's at fault? It's me. You want to know who to blame, blame me. You want to get angry at someone over it and mess with them, mess with me.

For that matter, now that I'm back Air Jappleack is grounded. I'm not going to stop anyone dumb enough to try and find some way to go in, but I'm sure as hell not going to be dragging anyone else in there to get caught because of my dumb bullshit. I'm gonna tell you not to go in there because that thing is probably pissed the hell off and going to immediately jump on anyone going into it, but hell. What do I know.

I'm sorry. I know that doesn't mean or do anything at this point but I'm sorry. I thought....I dunno.

I thought this could work. But I didn't plan enough, I didn't have enough or given enough information, this is on me. No one else.

You wanna scream at me, I'll be here. You wanna do it in person, I'll be the asshole trying to meditate on Sweet Apple Acres.

[Private to the Mane Six]

I'm sorry. I should have been there. But Dandy had a much better chance of getting everyone out if everything went to shit, and I needed to take what chance I could to find out what the ponies inside wanted to tell us. Maybe if it had been both of us warping together we could have done it quicker. This is on me. I misread everything and I hurt all of us.

If you want me to piss off for awhile? I get it. I will. Cause I can't make up for this shit.

[Private to Dandy]

You were right. I was wrong. I should have listened to you, and because I didn't I absolutely screwed us and got one of my best friends hurt.

This is my fault, entirely, not yours.

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[ She's quiet, for once. Mostly. ] Hey. [ She awkwardly stands there, still hugging Jappleack, because the pony really seems like she needs it.

God knows Kyouko felt like she did, after the one time she went into Calice, and now Jappleack's up to three. ]

'm glad yer back.

Sure.

[The trembling, at least, stops, and she takes a breath before finally letting go of the other girl, her eyes still firmly planted towards the floor.]

I just...

I didn't think it'd end like this.

Ya brought in how many? [ She's quiet, like there's someone in the other room or like she'll break something fragile with her voice if she talks too loud. ] An' got out with all but one?

Tha's... I mean, s'not good ya lost someone. But considerin' th'odds... [ She shrugs. ]

[She brought in how many? Too many, like an idiot. Like a goddamn child, thinking that some magic solution was just going to pop up. She closes her eyes for a moment, trying to think, to clear her head and it just isn't working.]

...She was my friend.

[It wasn't as if that really made any difference. Wouldn't have made it better if they had lost Fluttershy and she hadn't been her friend.]

Her and the other Fluttershy here are the only real versions of my friends here I've...you know. Been close with. Really gotten to know.

And I just fed her into that goddamn thing.

No, ya didn'. [ Still quiet. ] Sometimes things happen we didn' intend. Doesn' matter. We still gotta live with 'em.

But yer in magical pony land, so I bet ya heard that already. [ She tries a grin. ] What ya haven' had is Ponyville's best pie.

[She feels like yelling at that, asking how the hell that means anything, fixes anything. But she stops herself. Japple wants to yell a lot right now, but she doesn't want to do it at anyone, let alone Kyouko. She just nods her head a little, weakly.]

Yeah, sounds great.

...Anything else actually happen here aside from shit just hitting the fan.

Uh... 'm not actually that connected with most of Ponyville. [ She checks the pie from the oven and quickly pulls it out. ]

Oh... th'Agency took off. Not sure what happened there. Me an' Teds're th'only ones left.

...What, for like almost a month?

[She perks up a bit. The pie helps, just a bit.]

Get into any trouble?

[ Kyouko digs into the pie with her paws, fishing out a gloppy slice. The apples within are steaming and cinnamon-y. ]

Eh. Fox showed up wearin' pants. Scared 'im a little.

... oh, the Diamond Dogs opened a mine up.

[For the moment at least, JA still isn't touching the pie. Though she does tilt her head a bit.]

The hell do you care if a fox is wearing pants or not?

[Because pft mine. Who cares about that.]

Oh, what. [ Why does nobody else find this weird? ]

How many pants ya see 'round here? [ She's slurping up the remains of her first piece and eyeing the tin for a second. ]

The hell are you talking about? You wear pants.

[She nods a little towards Kyouko's shorts.]

I wear shorts an' they're awesome. Ya haven' seen this kid? He wears all this frou frouy stuff. S'like he's from a dif'rnt century.

Well sure, he's a fox. I mean they probably wear that shit like assholes. I guess all the more power to 'em, dressing up in that dumb shit.

Ya jus' got no idea how dumb he looks. We're not human, who the hell gives a buck about clothes anyway?

[ Said the massive hypocrite in her hoodie and shorts. ]

Dunno if you noticed but some ponies dress up all the time. Not like anyone gives a shit if you're wearing something or nothing if your a pony. The hell do you care if a fox does? You have any idea what it sounds like, you trying to justify getting the pants off some fox?

I told him it didn' actually matter. [ She grumbles, wiping her paws off on the counter. ] An' 'm not even thinkin' abou' cheatin' on Teds so don' say anythin' like that. Geez.

Hey, I didn't say shit on that.

[Her voice is light for that at least. But after a moment, she just looks at the table again.]

Enjoy this while it lasts, just kind of getting to dick around. I think she's gonna bring the hammer down on us soon for this bullshit.

[ Kyouko freezes a little at that. She takes a deep breath. ]

Well. Never though this'd last forever. [ But she'd really hoped.

Suddenly she doesn't have an appetite. She pushes the tin towards the pony. ]

[Jappleack closes her eyes a moment, just...trying to breath. God. She didn't want this. Let alone for Kyouko, for the other kids stuck here as well.

She looks at the pie tin for a moment before looking up at Kyouko.

She tries to smile.]

Sorry.

[She can feel the tears coming, but she doesn't care, and when she speaks again her voice cracks a little.]

Not really hungry.

No.

[ Not accepting Jappleack's apology. Because it's useless, and she doesn't need it. ]

Me either. [ And to that second thing... maybe Equestria really is changing her. ]

[For a moment, Jappleack just sits there, staring at the pie tin. It's as if she thinks she might find something there, some kind of answer, anything.

It feels so odd not to be hungry. It always has, when it's occurred for her. And always just felt bad. She shouldn't feel this bad, just looking at a half-eaten apple pie, watching juices run down from the pie into the tin.

The first sob surprises her. She'd managed to get this far without sobbing. But once it's out it's like a flood gate opening, and the world becomes a weird, terribly formed blur before her tears.

The sobbing won't stop, and she can't stop, and she just feels herself letting her head fall to the table, resting it against the wood.

Crying impotently.]

God...

[ She feels like she's invading a private moment, with her sticky hands and her fur smelling of apples.

She sits blankly at the counter with JA, staring dully at her friend going to pieces. ] D'ya think...

[ She hasn't considered this since the day she got here, but... ] D'ya think it's hell, ta get somethin' so good an' have it snatched away?

D'ya think tha's where we are?

[She tries to calm herself, her sobbing settling down to dull tremors so she can at least speak. She shakes her head a little, just barely raising it from the counter.]

No.

Think...maybe, losing something like that, it isn't too different from hell. But this place?

No.

It's a world, just like any other and it's living and breathing and goddamn alive. It's worth fighting for, to try and keep it that way.

Of course s'buckin' worth fightin' for. Even if it was hell it'd be worth fightin' for. Dammit...

[ She pounds her fist on the counter. ] S'all we got.

APPLE FACTS 16: YOU SCREWED UP HARD [Forward Dated to Monday] - Visual

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